Wednesday, January 31, 2007

I'm armed with a Camera!


Hey everyone…

hehehe…

well… today I’m going 2 write a 3 day synopsis
Well…yes. there will be pictures posted!

Hahaha….
Let’s start…hehe… my week has been alittle evil… with me playing around in school UNTIL!!
Mr Woon!
Asked me to do something for some stupid thing called semarak kasih
Well..
Its also known as some student profile thingy…
yup it does sound like the profiles on friendster thingy…
but well…its NOT!!...
it has so much information aboutthat student than u could ever know!

Hehe… I spent 3 days just to take every single form 5 student !
And seriously… it was actually really fun! Watching how La Sallians act infront of a camera
Where they usually say

“ Handsome Tak?”
“ eleh saya celebrity!”
“Aiyak saya buat apa?”
“wanted list ke?”
“Yee....… don’t take my photo”
“Seksi kan saya?”

Well…nmost of their lines really make me wanna puke…hahaha…
such as the last one…
its like eew….
Well… the rest of the post will be as my usuall…
Photos!!
Ah soh!!
Booney...hehe..
Ah niu
ARR...ARR...ARR.....
Poser 1
Poser 2!
Convict!
Pn Lily : "Hello Boys" (softly)
Prefects : harh!!??!?
Karishen : hmmm..collision theory...heheh...
Ben : ATACK!!!
The Victim of every science classes...General Bun!
a.k.a
Cocoban or Limau Ban
Sweep sweep sweep....
Hmmm… well everyone…

Anyway…hope u all liked the photos
Hahah
Gtg everyone!
seeya

-Benji-

Friday, January 26, 2007

Cross Country!

Cross Country!

Hahaha…

Yup yup the title says it all…
Well…
Its this years cross country race and this year I’ve expected myself to do really well this year and hoping for a better position… but well
Hahaha…we’ll just see…
Hahaha


2004's Position : ?!?!
2005's Posstion : 50+
2006's Position : 30
2007’s Position : 47! Arrr!

Horrible!!!
Okay…
Well…
I did not expect I was that bad!!
I was training the whole year every week!!! Its like impossible for me to get so bad…. But oh well…. I did…hahhaa…
Last year’s venue was like every same year… the banting track…
It was getting used to me…and I usually go running on that same track…. And I’ve improved really well… timing my self on that track I was like 40 min?
Well
This year…. They switched it!! Eek!!
It was at Taman Rakyat… some place I am totally not prepared for!
Almost 80% of the journey is uphill and downhill!
So as I usually run on flat grounds I was like screwed…. Hahahah…
oh well I’ll give it a try…hehe

Well I woke up at 5.30 as I usually do..
Went downstairs and start to check my email… and well…

I’ve got like 23 new messages…
amazing but it was all from relatives

so I took my own personal effort to DELETE IT!!!

Sorry uncle and aunties… but I am actually getting a little bored of their advice…
its always the same things …

and eventually I will send the same message to all of them…hehehe :P

Don’t worry I will reply them everyone…

So I started getting ready… and put on my gear…

Check List :
Water Bottle
Bag
Shoes
Socks
Boxers
Pants
School shirts
Ipod
Wallet
Phone
Hmmm… watch
Contacts…
Hmmm I guess that’s it…hahaha

Well mom woke up early and got the car started cause I thought I was late!
So we sorta speeded there like some Formula 1 race car?

So I’ve gotten there at about 7am??!!
I know I know soooo early…
And I was actually surprised all of my junior prefects without me wearing my uniform even came to wish me… I was like… wow… its cool…and one even asked if i need help from him to carry my bag!! Hahahaa
That was like a little too SCARY!

WELL…

I met up in a conversation with some of d juniors where said

Junior 1: Ben… are u running today?
Ben : Well yea… I always run…are you?
Junior 1 : Senior u must try to beat me!
Junior 2 : wei don’t play play la..this senior very good u know school player!
Ben : What? Where got ? (acting blur)
Junior 1 : oh yea hor… bola arr…bola apa arr?
Junior 2 : ur balls la….
Ben : *Slience*
Junior 1 : what u play arr senior ?
Tee : You 2 also donno arr!? Malu la u all
Junior 2 : why la… we seriously donno la
Ben : Hand Ball… hand ball
Junior 1 & 2 : HARH?! WHAT IS THAT?
Ben & Tee : oh shit… they seriously donno…
Tee : No wonder they are so fat…. Nvr exercise
Ben : hmmm… tee…I think they can beat u la… so don’t act …hahaha….:P
Tee : I can beat u too la
Ben : I’ll own you…
Tee : Bet? Rm 5?
Ben : fine
Junior 1 & 2 : Look there a bigger competition now…hahaha….


So as I walked around the area hearing ppl’s gossips and mostly what I hear is like “I heard this course is going to be easy”
Well…for all of u whom said that…hahaha disappointed?
Hahahaha

All my stuff were taken care of by my friend kugkan d P.A guy…
And we actually waited till about 9 am for the race to start…

On the same time… they had the usual things like the malay prayers that almost everyone did not concentrate upon… they just keep talking…

So we were all wondering where is the start line? Hahaha and we were so surprised it was down the hill! Hahaha…

WHAT IS A CROSS COUNRTY RACE WITHOUT CASUALTIES!?

Hahaha
Yes!! (Form one starting line)

On your Marks
Get Set!
GO!!

Trip
Crackle
Arrr!
Omg!
Mama!
Wei! Don’t push la!

That was what we practically heard…
And when the croud was gone there we
were watching about 4 kids yelling for the st john! Hahaha
Ouch!

Well…. I’m about to start doing what I do best…run! Ahaha… for the 1st few points I kept running then I slowed down… too much up hill… and then I broke down! Hahaha!

I ended up getting a bad place…hahaha.
leg cramps and finally back pain!

But oh well…I’ve enjoyed it all and kept going without giving up… and I’m satisfied of the only thing that kept me going on and on… that was the thoughts of someone that stayed there…

I’ve got to stop here… I’m supposed to be resting! Hahaha
oh yea i won that RM 5!!!

See ya everyone

-Ben-

Missing YOU….

ps: Boon Caught without shirt!

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

DaY DrEaMiNg!!

Hey everyone!! Hahha…sorry for not posting!!

Well..
Let me begin
My life is going pretty good… welll… a lot of suprises along the way as usual…hahaha… as a lot of u know… I’ve just had to go to Pn sunita’s tuition

I was excited and also nervous…
Calm but unstable! Well… its cause I was preparing to see some one really nice! Hahaha
Yes yes… Jane! Yea I was a bit nervous…we’ve met online …hehe…so 1st time I’m gona see her! Hehehe…
Well the first moment I was at the centre… Pn sunita called me…

Sunita : Ben!!!!
Ben : hehehe…hie …:P
Sunita : Where are my presents!??
Ben : arr…. Hahaha.i ate them teacher….
Sunita : go USA for what!?
Ben : Conference teacher… XP
Sunita : haih… ponteng number 1 la u Ben…
Ben : *OOPS* heh-heh-heh

Conversation ended…

Well… I went in to class and there he was!!
My good old friend Tommy…hehehe.. mr orange utd…hahaha
As usuall I’ll be myself… and laugh out loud…hehehe… both of us making jokes about president bush and Arnold swarzer-something…going through the topics I ‘ve asked him about me making a decition that might change my life… well… the way he explained… is like hmmm… its my decition… and I’ll make my own choice..

Afterawhile …
Class started…and I missed the spot test… salt…. Hmm garam…mmmmm food… yummy… hmmmm… hungry….!!! Eek!! I’m going out of topic again!

But I looked at the Brightside…heheh… I was like…
“It’s a good thing that the test is over”
Yea…I was like… wheew its over….
But NO!!!
THE TORTURE IS ABOUT TO BEGIN!!!
Arrr!!!
Because this Saturday….
There will be a replacement!!! Eek!!!
On salt!! Eek!!
Its like Saturday!!! Its like… sleep… mmmmm rest….

Conclusion : LAZY! Hahaha

Well during class I’m not embarrassed to say this but I’ve been directing my concentration somewhere else… well… its hard to focus…hehe… its really hard to focus when there’s something or someone else in your mind just hovering around my noodles (Brain) hahaha….

Well…
it happened in school again…
me loosing my concentration with the concept of day dreaming…
and no it was NOT Mdm Ho’s class…hehehe…
*thinking of her class makes me want to…ZzZzZzZzZzZ*
haha... yea… me just dropping my jaw as ppl’s conversations with information just fly through my ears without my brain even thinking what it was about and in the end only to give a reply that sound like…
“uhuh?”

Anyway everyone… slowly u will find out this mystery person and who she really is… okay? Do keep visiting…I’ll post my next page by Saturday night! I promise! Hahaha…

-Ben-


EffEcTs oF DaY DrEaMiNg

Yeoh : I Better not see this

Koo : Not AgAIN!

Dollah : Watever...

Hoong Tah : Bang Bang!

Ben : Ouch!

Sunday, January 21, 2007

La Salle

Hey everyone...
school's started this year and these are the few funny photos i've taken....
If u all got anything coming up do tell me...

*Yawn* Good Morning La Salle!
XD
Never Look Like this while asking a girl on a date : Elementary Dating Skills One
Goh : i'll purify you ,tommy ,of ur sins...
LOOK BEYOND THE PHOTO... LOOK BEYOND IVAN (hitting leong's *toot*)
Joshua : What the hell is wrong with this class!?!?
Karishan : Hey mervyn i think there something behind the story of the Pearl...
Moohan : Yea... i think so too! i think i've got the pearl in my pants... see!
Mervyn : ....

Tommy and Goh...romantic arent they!?!? GAY!!!
-Ben-
A Feeling that gets stronger...
ps : That girl that i was out with is my cousin!!

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Oops... Missed one out!


HAHAH...WELL
everyone... i dont think i can update that often this month
but here's what i missed from the sushi postage.... haha... its called....
YOU PAY THE BILL!
HAHAHA
ANYWAY... i'll update the next time i'm free... thats maybe this weekend.... u know?
-Ben-
Living Life Large! tripple L's!

Saturday, January 13, 2007

Sushi King!!

Well it is saturday...
and well...it was boring...
as usual....
i woke up to a quiet and tired morning...
well at least i tried to wake up...

Well... i woke up about 11 where i found out that mom and dad left to genting!! eek...

i was alone.... again... haih... oh well...

the house was quiet... with only me and my sis at home...

as usuall she called her husband to pick us up to go makan...

and YES!!! sushi!! hahaha...


the moving belt started!! hahaha...well... i do what i do best..

Wait!!

and then!! waa!!!

*background sound of something coming down from heaven*

Rou! (fish eggs!)

and i seriously did not know that sushi could be that boring! hahaha... seriously look at this

hahah...anyway that all 4 now... do visit sometime soon guys and girls! hahaha

take care...

-Ben -

Trying to enjoy life...

Meaning of A Love So Rare...

Okie everyone...
i guess i'll say it out...
and STOP BUGGING ME ABOUT IT!!!
HAHAHA...

okie well...
A Love So Rare...
well its known to me as one of the best poem
i wrote when i met someone... last year...
anyway its down there....
haha
hope you all like it... do comment about it....

A Love So Rare

No truer words will ever be spoken
you have all my love and devotion
I close my eyes when we're apart
but visions of you still stir in my heart

Nothing has ever been so right
may our future be forever bright
We have a love that is so rare
That others dream they could only share

Without you I would be half not whole
the emptiness I would feel in my soul
That greatest gift I will cherish in life
will be the day you become my wife

I will always stand strong and true
a promise to honor and protect you
My love will grow for each passing day
stronger then any spoken words I can say

You are my angel from high above
forever we will share this eternal love
When our two souls are united as one
forever and always we will shine as one

Benjamin Tan

PS: Guys please dont u dare take it and pass it
to your gf's saying that u wrote it yourself...
okay?

Sunday, January 07, 2007

Risks.... Take it!!

A lot of u have asked me…
why am I so stressed….
What happened to the old ben….
Are u alright?..


well…
I say “this is me”… Ben…

I am what I am…
and this is how I love life the right way…the real way….


I’ve learnt to take risks beyond what people would normally do… doing this has brought me this far learning new things the hard way…the real way… unchanged and original….
I’ve had talks with my friends about taking risk and not a lot of them understand what I meant…

So now I’ll explain what I really and truly meant….
In life,we face so many problems! Uncountable blockades!
Just trying to stop you in your path…as an example…
I was stopped in my project lacking of funds to complete it…
at this point, most people would turn it down… hold on to get help….
Well… I did not…
I’ve thought of the future of what could actually happen and took the risk….
Bringing out my own funds from my pocket to take that chance
I predicted where I could get back every single cent I placed in that project after it was over…..
and the success of my project all depends if the people around me agreed on it…
in the end… that risk I took paid off… and I lost nothing…. That point of risk that I’ve taken was just a minor fact in it all…where it proves that taking risk would be the best thing…

Well in life taking risk is something normal…
Buying a pen is also taking a risk… a risk where “will the pen work?” “will it function properly?”, or even “will one day this pen stab me”… No matter what the factors involved it is still a risk….

What and how does my risk compare to your risk… the amount of risk takes count on the effect of it upon failure…such as something that everyone can compare to is such as the risk of buying a “PEN” compared to “JUMPING OUT A PLANE WITH A PARASHUTE”….

What ever we do in life…the risk is always there….
The effect on YOUR OWN FAILURE that effects the people around you… is what that brings in the highest risk…


But its nothing compared to the risk that damages yourself internally…
I’ve taken that risk…
I’ve taken falls when I’ve could have stayed and watch it all happen slowly…
I’ve fought through time’s when everyone stayed back… I’ve done the impossible…

A lot might say "Ben everyone has taken that fall before… "
well… u have fell for the right reasons…
I did not… People fall when they know they are wrong… This makes them absorb less pain…knowing they have been defeated by the right way…

Well I’ve fallen even when I had the evidence to prove to all that I was right… I have been pushed down… where others fell with their own will and moved on….

Many say… when you have fall… YOU get back up and build up again…and that is how u achieve happiness… well…. Picture this… You have been provided a Billion dollars… to build a building… and as construction went on… you’ve spent it all…and some unknown person comes in and destroy that building because of jealousy…
What do u do now?

Rebuild it?
If you’ve said yes… there’s another question for you….
WHAT ARE U GOING TO REBUILD IT WITH!?

TOOTHPICKS??!?!


No one has looked at a picture beyond what u could see…

In life build something so strong that no one could bring down… because if it is that strong.. there would not be anything in the world would even think of bringing it down...

A Strong foundation does not mean u can rise up to be strong… because its how u balance the top that matter’s in the end…

Don’t look at a picture right in front… look at it from every angle…imagine your goal and get there!

"Learn to Take risks...Then You will know what Life is really about!!! And If you are having problems.. Don’t be A Coward and Face It !!!"

-Ben-

Monday, January 01, 2007

Ending 2006…Synopsis






















Hey everyone…

Well….i’ve learnt a lot this year especially in life…
Have You ever wondered? Lemon Onion Bringale….

Tought of it as a joke at a start…
and that joke has become a lesson…a rule….an obsession….

It all begin by me at school… being the average guy there… doing average things….
A normal prefect… a normal interactor… just another ordinary guy around….
Well when the time comes for everyone… I comes in a huge way..

I’ve started working harder pushing myself and the people around me to do extraordinary things…. For this… it has brought me Glory…. To the masses…. It was unstoppable… at this point in the year… I thought my self as unstoppable… almighty… and finally…undefeatable….

Well.. yes I had to agree…life is unexpected… amazing…and great… and finally triumph over all… I became the President of the Interact Club of La Salle Klang…the President of the hand ball association…the president of the science and math club…the deputy head prefect…and the best moment is that when I found the best girl….
Yes this is my confession… I’ve proposed to her on the 23rd august… it was great….

Life after that went on great…. My friends were close….it seemed for those moments I was loved by all…. But no…. people will still be into jealousy and anger… finding new ways to destroy the new enemy… that’s Me…. Myself …and I…

Although ignorance was a really good way to go through it all I was being bombarded my unstoppable rumors…and lies….

YES EVERYONE!! Lies!
I know everyone..I am sorry….. I’ve done a lot of wrong things….
And the biggest mistake was forgetting my friends…

The year started out great… but as we all know all great civilizations will come to an end… and my end was not far away….the stress …the pain… and the suffering…. All came at once…it was too much to handle…. I’ve even forgotten the ones I loved…. Yes… my friends overseas that have been with me all the time… gone…. Lillian… gone…Trust from my family….gone….. I’ve lost it all…. I’ve lost it all… in one month...December…..

I tried my best… I tried with all my might to fight for what I once had and what I need back… the battles were won… but in the end… the war is lost….

Many Battles Can Be Won… But If The War Is Over…what’s the point….

I’ve battled for my families trust…and I’ve won it….

I’ve battled for the trust from my friends but I’ve only won a few….

I’ve battled for the one that I love…. But… I’ve lost….

In life Love is what there really is ….
Without love in what ever we do.... there is no point, no vision… no goal…
Fighting for the one that I love made me think finally….we sometimes have to let go…Well I don’t have the will to do so…. Letting go of the ones you love or loved… is the hardest in life…it is not that simple to do then saying it out… I’ve asked for help from many of my friends… like Koo… he told me to forget about it and move on… but well if you’ve got the best would you just drop it all to move on…. Of course not…and koo I thank you for your advice… but an advice will stay as an advice… the decition is still in my hands… its in me… as myself….no others…


Returning from the USA..I was faced with a lot of problems… my public organizations had financial problems, Important function’s that I’ve missed…. And finally the one I loved has left me for another guy… yes….marcus…

I’m not angry…but confused of him being a person whom is much elder and mature to not face your problems that are right infront of himself…but in a way…I don’t mind because I know that I’ve done many things that are wrong.... mistakes that I am sure he will make too….its life…

The problems I’ve faced in my life were solved with a snap… with me pushing myself to face it rather than taking the easier way out…Yes…I’ve said it… I face my problems and my challenges head on… no lies , no cheats and no fear…. So that’s why my friends (la sallians) if you notice I’m always busy its just because I’m always concentrating on how am I going to solve my problems…

My life is great seeing that my old friends become best of friends like my quiet neighbour Sonia…. Yea…we are great friends…. Accompanying me when I was too bored… and being there to annoy me when I was angry…haha… those were times…

Mr Dayanand… I could say he’s my first ever Indian friend since childhood… haha… good luck dude at Canada… haha… Forget Malaysia and don’t come back!! Hahaha.. kidding!! Do visit!

Samantha… my long awaited friend that is going away for a long time to come…good luck in your times to come in the USA…Leaving on the 7th of January I suppose Right?… Haih.. I’m gonna miss ur boring advices…

Leon , Lyndy and Loo Sin my favourite 3 “L’s”… Without you I’ve been lost for a long time… for some reason both of you were there when I took my biggest blows…. Falling off my feet, some how I manage to stay up….

Deniece and Josh… Life’s always great having there to share the up’s and Down’s…. Although I’ve not seen both of you for a very long time… it still feels like you both are right beside me telling me secrets that you’ve concealed .... please do return home on Chinese new year! Everyone here misses you! and Do control yourselves....You know what i mean...

My best of friends…Tommy and Hoong Tah… yea I know hoong tah…I’m sorry I’ve not paid enough attention to you but you were always like a guardian to me… helping me beat the crap out of everyone that we hate….and tommy… the only guy that will make me laugh with his little irritating smile and laughter even if I’ve exploded with anger..….

The one I lost…. Lillian…. I’ve always dreamed of it to be a happy ending… but things always happen between us all…if this is what fate has brought us to…. Well I’ll let it be… that time has come to the end where there will be no turning back…
Memories will be memories…and memories will be forgotten… Its time for you to make new ones with the “new one”…. Where I will rebuild myself to a point where I will be ready again…ready for it all….

To all my other friends…I have not forgotten you…
always there somewhere at some point… the thoughts had return…

My year started out with me and my thoughts of reaching for new heights… and going for everything I can get...Till i became Mad with Power….

In the end it has brought me to my destruction….but through every destruction… there is always a light , a light left behind…. When all of these lights come together… it becomes stronger thus brighter and brighter.... with that…there would never be an ending…

so as i learn't

"A bad ending doesn’t always have to be a sign for another bad beginning"…..

“ It All Comes In One Package, Where I Call It Life!!”

Always keep your promises…. Because they are forever…. Breaking one might seem a scratch… but it bleeds internally….

Love is not 2 forget but 2 forgive, not 2 c but 2 understand, not 2hear but 2 listen, not 2 let go but 2 Hold On…..Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like, because the one you like will leave you for the one they love.

What Goes Around Comes Around…


Benjamin Tan
1st of January 2007 (3.00am)
Lemon Onion Bringale