Monday, January 01, 2007

Ending 2006…Synopsis






















Hey everyone…

Well….i’ve learnt a lot this year especially in life…
Have You ever wondered? Lemon Onion Bringale….

Tought of it as a joke at a start…
and that joke has become a lesson…a rule….an obsession….

It all begin by me at school… being the average guy there… doing average things….
A normal prefect… a normal interactor… just another ordinary guy around….
Well when the time comes for everyone… I comes in a huge way..

I’ve started working harder pushing myself and the people around me to do extraordinary things…. For this… it has brought me Glory…. To the masses…. It was unstoppable… at this point in the year… I thought my self as unstoppable… almighty… and finally…undefeatable….

Well.. yes I had to agree…life is unexpected… amazing…and great… and finally triumph over all… I became the President of the Interact Club of La Salle Klang…the President of the hand ball association…the president of the science and math club…the deputy head prefect…and the best moment is that when I found the best girl….
Yes this is my confession… I’ve proposed to her on the 23rd august… it was great….

Life after that went on great…. My friends were close….it seemed for those moments I was loved by all…. But no…. people will still be into jealousy and anger… finding new ways to destroy the new enemy… that’s Me…. Myself …and I…

Although ignorance was a really good way to go through it all I was being bombarded my unstoppable rumors…and lies….

YES EVERYONE!! Lies!
I know everyone..I am sorry….. I’ve done a lot of wrong things….
And the biggest mistake was forgetting my friends…

The year started out great… but as we all know all great civilizations will come to an end… and my end was not far away….the stress …the pain… and the suffering…. All came at once…it was too much to handle…. I’ve even forgotten the ones I loved…. Yes… my friends overseas that have been with me all the time… gone…. Lillian… gone…Trust from my family….gone….. I’ve lost it all…. I’ve lost it all… in one month...December…..

I tried my best… I tried with all my might to fight for what I once had and what I need back… the battles were won… but in the end… the war is lost….

Many Battles Can Be Won… But If The War Is Over…what’s the point….

I’ve battled for my families trust…and I’ve won it….

I’ve battled for the trust from my friends but I’ve only won a few….

I’ve battled for the one that I love…. But… I’ve lost….

In life Love is what there really is ….
Without love in what ever we do.... there is no point, no vision… no goal…
Fighting for the one that I love made me think finally….we sometimes have to let go…Well I don’t have the will to do so…. Letting go of the ones you love or loved… is the hardest in life…it is not that simple to do then saying it out… I’ve asked for help from many of my friends… like Koo… he told me to forget about it and move on… but well if you’ve got the best would you just drop it all to move on…. Of course not…and koo I thank you for your advice… but an advice will stay as an advice… the decition is still in my hands… its in me… as myself….no others…


Returning from the USA..I was faced with a lot of problems… my public organizations had financial problems, Important function’s that I’ve missed…. And finally the one I loved has left me for another guy… yes….marcus…

I’m not angry…but confused of him being a person whom is much elder and mature to not face your problems that are right infront of himself…but in a way…I don’t mind because I know that I’ve done many things that are wrong.... mistakes that I am sure he will make too….its life…

The problems I’ve faced in my life were solved with a snap… with me pushing myself to face it rather than taking the easier way out…Yes…I’ve said it… I face my problems and my challenges head on… no lies , no cheats and no fear…. So that’s why my friends (la sallians) if you notice I’m always busy its just because I’m always concentrating on how am I going to solve my problems…

My life is great seeing that my old friends become best of friends like my quiet neighbour Sonia…. Yea…we are great friends…. Accompanying me when I was too bored… and being there to annoy me when I was angry…haha… those were times…

Mr Dayanand… I could say he’s my first ever Indian friend since childhood… haha… good luck dude at Canada… haha… Forget Malaysia and don’t come back!! Hahaha.. kidding!! Do visit!

Samantha… my long awaited friend that is going away for a long time to come…good luck in your times to come in the USA…Leaving on the 7th of January I suppose Right?… Haih.. I’m gonna miss ur boring advices…

Leon , Lyndy and Loo Sin my favourite 3 “L’s”… Without you I’ve been lost for a long time… for some reason both of you were there when I took my biggest blows…. Falling off my feet, some how I manage to stay up….

Deniece and Josh… Life’s always great having there to share the up’s and Down’s…. Although I’ve not seen both of you for a very long time… it still feels like you both are right beside me telling me secrets that you’ve concealed .... please do return home on Chinese new year! Everyone here misses you! and Do control yourselves....You know what i mean...

My best of friends…Tommy and Hoong Tah… yea I know hoong tah…I’m sorry I’ve not paid enough attention to you but you were always like a guardian to me… helping me beat the crap out of everyone that we hate….and tommy… the only guy that will make me laugh with his little irritating smile and laughter even if I’ve exploded with anger..….

The one I lost…. Lillian…. I’ve always dreamed of it to be a happy ending… but things always happen between us all…if this is what fate has brought us to…. Well I’ll let it be… that time has come to the end where there will be no turning back…
Memories will be memories…and memories will be forgotten… Its time for you to make new ones with the “new one”…. Where I will rebuild myself to a point where I will be ready again…ready for it all….

To all my other friends…I have not forgotten you…
always there somewhere at some point… the thoughts had return…

My year started out with me and my thoughts of reaching for new heights… and going for everything I can get...Till i became Mad with Power….

In the end it has brought me to my destruction….but through every destruction… there is always a light , a light left behind…. When all of these lights come together… it becomes stronger thus brighter and brighter.... with that…there would never be an ending…

so as i learn't

"A bad ending doesn’t always have to be a sign for another bad beginning"…..

“ It All Comes In One Package, Where I Call It Life!!”

Always keep your promises…. Because they are forever…. Breaking one might seem a scratch… but it bleeds internally….

Love is not 2 forget but 2 forgive, not 2 c but 2 understand, not 2hear but 2 listen, not 2 let go but 2 Hold On…..Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like, because the one you like will leave you for the one they love.

What Goes Around Comes Around…


Benjamin Tan
1st of January 2007 (3.00am)
Lemon Onion Bringale

3 comments:

Sophie said...

Dont worry la Ben...
You did not loose anything... i'm serious...she left you and she will regret it... i'll bett ya that... even if she doesen't want to admit it... she will fill it inside.... ur a very nice person.... cheer up...

Deniece said...

Think Of it Ben...
you have not lost anything in the end....
because she is the one that has lost the biggest thing there is to be lost not you... Cheer Up... You Still have alot of friends...

Carmen said...

The World is like that... its all the same either way..
What goes around comes around..
that guy and Lillian dont have real love... everyone can see it...